hmm..

just a realization:


angels are meant to be free..because if held in captivity, they lose their divinity..


now I know..

now I know why you're far away..

now I know why you distance yourself from me..

now I know that despite all the crap I did, you still don't look back..

yeah..

I am in love..

in love with a mere painting..

an inanimate object that ignores your admiration..

pitiful.

eenspayrd

(note: ang post na itoh ay inspired by my friend's post. hulaan nio nalang kung cno xa at anung post yun. hehe. )

Di ka niya mahal pero mahal kita!!
(a fundamentalistic analysis of the behavioral instincts of the emotionally scarred)

Oo nga naman..bakit ganon?

Kakatapos ko lang basahin ung post ng mga kaibigan ko (http://egotist3.blogspot.com/2005_06_12_egotist3_archive.html & http://makubenzon.blogspot.com ung post na me title na "wala lang." waw inadvertise pa talaga..)the sad fact is, totoo lahat ng nakasaad jan. We live in this pitiful world were the pursuit of acquiring love is endless. Often times, we find ourselves in love with a moving target, an equally disgruntled, love obssesed person also in love with another moving target. Parang isang walang tigil na habulan. Ikaw, kunwari, hahabulin kita tas kaw naman me hinahabol den. Ang masama non, tinatakbuhan mo ko for unknown reasons(refer to egotist3.blogspot.com) habang hinahabol mo ang isang tao na tinatakbuhan ka rin. Oo nga nman, bakit hindi pwedeng tumigil na lang sa pagtakbo kung wala ng pagasang makahabol para naman mabigyang pagkakataon ang mga humahabol sa'yo? Para fair. Pareho naman tayong naghihikahos(please correct the spelling) so bakit di nalang tayo tumigil para magpahinga and at the same time get to know each other well? Ang daya eh. The mere fact that someone is running after you must give you the intuition that you must stop in your tracks and wait for the one that's behind you. That way everybody's happy.

Right???

*..here I go..scream m lungs out and try to get to you..
-Only One, Yellow Card*

ano??nababasa mo na toh???yehey!!!!!!!!

Ambiguity

There are things I’m supposed to understand
That I cannot comprehend my living here
Where to go I don’t know
The place to be is so unknown
I want to try my luck
But every time I slip and fail
With nowhere to go nowhere to hide
I can no longer keep what’s inside
Hope there will be someone I can hold on to
To stay with me in my failures
To wipe the tears I shed everyday
And wrap me in loving arms
Then together we will be free
Defying the odds overcoming obstacles
Then when everything is all said and done
We will grace the world with holding hands