angst part 2

"nobody said it was easy..
it's such a shame for us to part.."
-Coldplay, from the song "The Scientist"


wHERE tO tURN
I am a soldier. When the coast is clear, when the enemy is gone, I pack up my equipment and head back to my post. Even though there is no sight of danger, I should always be on guard. Who knows what danger lurks amidst the deafening silence. I should be well-prepared, lest I encounter an unexpected attack from the opposing side. But what I fear is not the prowling opponent, or the savage animals that roam. It's the cold, unforgiving breeze of loneliness that almost consumed me in a roaring fire-an irony of sorts. Sadness. All my comrades had left me and I had deliberately distanced myself from the General. I regretted everything I have done. I can no longer stand the shivers. I want to come home.

uNEXPECTED sUPPORT
Just as I neared the brink of being swallowed in a portal of self-denial, I suddenly heard laughter. It was an invigorating scenario, as I witness a happy apparition materializing in front of me. My friends. They have come to give me company. To provide support. Yes. I felt the winds have ceased to blow. The sun has risen again. Buts still, there's an empty feeling. A feeling that still haunts my entire self. Though I have the one thing I needed to survive in these grueling battles, I felt that there's a void that only the General coud fill.

(to be continued)